On this blog, I get some comments. Most nice, some weird and some just plain nosey.....
I like when people comment. It's like fan mail (silly, I know).
I got one today from "Anonymous", who is my most frequent commenter....
"It's great you have a new outlook on your eating habits but let me tell you girl, your heart is already in danger the way you keep hatin' on your sisters. I'd be mad if you said that about me. "
First, I was not "hating on my sisters". Second, you oh Anonymous One, know very little (only a tiny publishable bit and MY side of the story, which is undoubtedly biased) of my family dynamics. My family is pretty screwy. I like to say that we put the fun in dysfunctional. I don't HATE them. In fact, I don't feel much of anything. I distanced myself from that a long, long time ago. It all came to the surface when my mom visited but it's okay. I have never had a very close relationship with any of my sisters (I have three, all older..) Thirdly, I didn't say anything rude or untrue in my post. It's accurate: all of my sisters are heavy and diabetic. True. Genetics is a real bitch, and believe me, we got some bad genetics in my family...and frankly, I don't much care if they get mad at me. Makes no difference in how I live my life. I just don't want to end up like that someday. So I am doing something about it now while I can.
I actually pray for my sisters (and my brother). I used to wish for them to like me. I used to hope that I could be a person that would appeal to them. I was so pathetic then...Really. But then I grew up and got past that. I miss something that I never really had. Sad, but true...I have one sister whose two children have the same genetic disorder mine do (Fragile x syndrome), when her kids were diagnosed, I thought "Okay, maybe this will bring us closer." It was not to be.
I am not a mean person.
Not "hating on my sisters".
Not at all.
I was just being truthful.
I just don't want to end up with their health issues.
This blog is about ME and my life.
Not about them.
It just so happens that I mentioned them in this post.
Weird though, I get LOTS of comments and mail when I write about my family.
Lots of mail from women just like me who had similar family experiences....
So Anonymous, I was not being hateful. Just truthful.