Every once in a while, something happens that causes me to shut down, re-group and re-focus. Sometimes, it's a good thing. Sometimes, it's out of necessity...
Well, I am cleaning out rooms, getting rid of MASSIVE piles of clutter. I am hoping that my husband comes home and say "Wow..." I feel breathless and smothered by all the junk. My house is small and it feels even smaller because I am disorganized. I am freecycling like mad and trying to find a happy medium. Obviously adding on a room or buying a bigger house is not possible right now, so my solution: have less "stuff".
I used to be VERY materialistic. Not because I was wealthy. But because I was lucky (?) enough to have a boyfriends who spoiled me and bought me lots of stuff. One Christmas a guy bought me 47 gifts...I loved it at the time but I was selfish and had out-of-whack priorities. Well, I'm grown now and my focus is on better things. But not THINGS in general. That stuff doesn't matter to me anymore, and it hasn't for a long time.
So I have a bunch of "stuff". And I am not that person....the one who's into stuff. You know, fancy $400 purses that don't mean a thing. Clothes that you will never wear in your REAL life. They don't call them "trappings" for nothing, you know. I have felt the weight, both emotionally and financially, for quite some time. Well, I am freeing myself of the "stuff" that I have collected.
I am going to TRY to change this way of thinking. Even though I am not a "stuff" person anymore, I still have that mind-set, you know? It's HARD to turn away from what you want. Because in our culture, more means better. Well, that is contrary to what I believe in my heart. This is an effort to clean up in more ways than one.
This will also mean a HUGE purging of my scrapbooking and stamping items. Believe me, this has been a LONG time coming....
I want my house to be cleaner.
I don't want the burden of "stuff".